And so the Heavens open!!

Its raining here!!..Wow!..I think most of the people here will b happy, cos it doesnt rain here usually.Cmon its UAE!

It took longer than usual for me to reach my college(rain+traffic).I think some of My "bus-mates" were happy,cos they were joking with the driver to drive slower than usual.They said,it feels romantic!Mmm..whatever
And guess what!I lost my foot twice while entering the college,and that too in front of others.Hee!!But hey,i dint fall..just slipped.

I remember when i was in secondary school, I used to cry when i see its cloudy outside!!First of all, i dint like the boarding school,secondly i was so homesick,thirdly i was a huge failure in my studies.It was so depressing..but not anymore.Thank God...I Love the sun!!..and the day before i was asking one of my friend to step outside from her home (joking actually),to brighten up the day!! hehe..

Tomorrow I have something to present..i hope it goes well.If it doesnt..then who cares?!(but yes,i love getting corrected, and when someone points out my mistakes.Improving is another matter.But at least, it shows the other person cares about you!..or dont they?)

Do u know to stitch?Cos my heart is torn apart!!

Just a crazy Title thats all!! i have thinkin of using this title,for no reason whatsoever for the past week. i got free time now,so i post it...

Had a nice week+weekend!..exams comin up!!

Guys,get luckier by being nice!!

Contrary to previous "scientific" opinion, playing nice and slow actually improves the chances of getting a perfect mate.Being aggressive reduces the chances.Im sorry bullies, but the girl decides here.

Now i dont know if this relates to us humans..but it seems interesting enough.Studies carried with water striders proved that females rejected males who are too "pushy".

Visit here if  u want to know what was carried out.

Love Heals...or atleast reduces pain

Have you ever felt a reduction in physical pain when you think about your loved ones??..Of course it makes us "feel" better emotionally(isnt it?)..but this is the first time im hearing that it can reduce physical pain.

This new study found out that it actually does.They tested this theory on 25 women who had boyfriends.It can be read here .These women experienced less heat when they saw a picture of their boyfriend than when they saw the picture of a stranger. And "In another set of conditions, each woman held the hand of her boyfriend, the hand of a male stranger and a squeeze ball. The study found that when women were holding their boyfriends' hands, they reported less physical pain than when they were holding a stranger's hand or a ball while receiving the same amount of heat stimulation."

I like such kind of studies :-)

Holidays!!

Its been a while since my last post.I was a bit busy with college,and now since im having holidays i thought of posting something.

Well, I got some sort of answer to the question which i posted on November 3.The answer  doesnt relate to humans as such, but to a handful of animal species which display colour.
The answer which i quote ...

"The cost of attacking the wrong type of male and of being attacked by the wrong type of male favors the rich diversity of coloration and of birdsong and chemical cues, such as odors, to identify rivals"

This article can be found here in Science Daily.It basically says that colour in males helps them to avoid fighting with the wrong species.

Love and Lust

Love is when you associate your "heart/soul" with some one.Lust is when you associate your "physical body" with someone mentally.Am i right here?If not someone please do correct me.
Is lust normal?I dont know.Is lust common?I think so.Is it bad?I think so. Have I felt lust?Of course I have.Does that make me bad?I dont know, but i guess im not bad.Im just being honest here..ok?You may think, "doesnt this guy hav any sort of privacy?"Mmm..well i do have, but i think in order to fight against such things, you need to talk about it to someone.Hence, this post :-)

I was reading another article today.It said:
"It seems to be true that the interplay of love and lust is different for most men and women. Most men report that as love deepens, lust receeds (see the Coolidge effect)—while many women experience the opposite: the more love and security they feel with a given man, the more relaxed they are about experiencing unrestrained lust."

This sounds applicable to me also, i have felt this way before i:e as love deepens, lust receeds.
However I dint know what was the so called "Coolidge effect", untill I read it in Wikipedia.Its kind of funny when you read why its named in this way.This effect is pretty interesting.I never knew such a "thing" had a name of its own.And the experiments to prove this seems more bizarre.
The article could be found here

Ahem...but. Am I romantic?

Love is strange..Is it? Love happens..Im sure! Does too much "like" turn into love?..I wonder.Love is Blind..or are you blind with love?Love is to be felt..what happens if it cant be felt?Love is personal..but how personal can love get?Love is to be won..so is it a game?

 So... What is Love?

Even though my blog is titled "Love4ever"..i dont know the meaning of love.How stupid? I began this topic because I just read an article about "Men in Love"..here.It so nice!! I love such topics/surveys/research...who doesnt?
At least for me, If I seem to fall for a girl, i would take my best of my ability to say it to the girl..in whatever means, although it may take time for me to express it.Its sometimes shocking, for someone to realize i actually will do it, when they see my overall character.Im generally quiet.And not a person who seeks attention.I am what I am.I think im not at all romantic.
But look at this extract from the article:
" .....but many men do something more romantic than all that: they keep their love in their hearts forever."
How touching? Is it not?
Am i like that?I dont know for sure but i think i am, even though i dint take part in the survey.Its a sad thing,  to keep your feelings locked in your heart forever...isnt it? Im not of the types, who buy flowers for their girls, Im not the type who goes to the cinemas together. Im not the type  who sends cards to express my love.Although I would love to do these, Im so not such types.Blame me,its ok.But yeah, I know generally girls love to be a part of this.They sometimes demand so much from boys.And sometimes when the boy delivers her demand, she rejects it and maybe worse..him.I wish the men/boys applied brakes to their hectic love life.If you love someone,tell them and stick to it.No need for excessive ways to prove it.

Oops! Its Safiya's Birthday, I dint call her yet.I actually never wished her for her birthday (i actually forgets) although she was with me for the past 2 years.See, I dont think you need to wish someone whom you love so much.If u wish,its all good,and if u dont wish its all good still.You know you love her very much, and she knows it too..thts it.Mutual understanding is the key here.Safiya knows that I am her best friend and that Its ok if i dint wish her. But yeah, not all boys/men/women/girls are like this.They cause such a fuss for  the simple reason of not wishing, untill one of the other says "I Love you and I am sorry"..or something else.My God!!..Love is definitely strange.

Are you are the boss of your own thoughts?

What happens when something you dont want to remember/think crawls into your mind?Ignore it?Well at least for me, i either write about it to someone, talk about it to someone or just as usuall force myself not to think about it.Just yesterday itself I wrote about "some" thing which i dont like to think  to a friend, or take last week when I talked about it to some one else.It defenitely helped me in certain ways. 1st it helped me to realise that someone is always there to listen and help me out. 2ndly it hepled me to gain the trust with the other person.Thirdly, it helps to get rid of theses unwanted thoughts and desires from your mind.So as time goes, you basically forget the fact that you actually were thinking like that.Problem solved.But this simple strategy may not work for someone,who may be so obsessed with their "not needed" thoughts.Such kind of people may need a therapy or medical help.
The reason why Im writing this is because today a read an article about this whole issue, but in a more scientific way.Its interesting as well. Go here .
I especially liked the last bit, where it explians how to solve this problem.

"The answer: don't try so hard to control your thoughts! Instead, see if you can't get your secret preoccupation out in the open. Find a confidante to whom you can confess the idea—or perhaps write about it."

Iam grateful for my two friends for listening to me.Thank you so much.

Female power?!!

I had this thought for a very long time, and its only now i get a chance to express it.
I have this feeling that for human beings generally the female gender is more "beautiful" than the male gender.Is this true?Y is it like this, if its true?Does nature play a role here?If so what?
When i see the bird kingdom, i often see the male birds more beautiful, for example take the most obvious one, the peacock.The beauty it holds is amazing.why does in this case, the male  be more attractive?What difference will it make, if the peahen be colourfull, while the male be without the striking display of colours?
 From the animal kingdom, i have the lion.Does having the mane on a lion make it more attractive?
I wish i get an answer from somewhere.But this is what i think.It can be wrong or senseless.

Well, i think as humans evolved into more "brainer" species,there was a switch somewhere.That is, if you do believe in evolution.The result?The era of the "Pretty women"..hee

Back to Studies!!

Finally, I have reached Dubai!! I arrived here,like about 4 days ago.And today was my first day in the new college albeit I went there on 15th, but it was of no use as it was some sort of  holiday.Well, there are about 13 students, and including me there are only two boys.The class seems very friendly and i liked it.We had a lecture today, and there I was sitting with little or no clue at all.I wonder how I will catch up!God I trust in You,I will try to play my part, but please be  a litle considerate on me.Pleeeeeeeees!
The climate seems tolerable enough.Isnt hot better than cold?But yeah, it depends how hot it gets.

Ok then,..this was just a short update of my life.I hope it will good for me here.
Bye

Did i hurt you?Im so sorry if I did

Yesterday I went to college to break the news that my visa is finally ready to Safiya. Man!! she was so upset.If only I could speak Arabic.It was very emotional and i wont forget it.She said she expected me to say that I would  be with her, but it was the opposite.She said its very hard to forget the two years we had together.That no one can replace my place.She kept on asking "Why are you doing this to me?"..She said she sometimes hates me now.That her studies would go down, and the fees given will be a waste.Her eyes became red and tearful.I just totally love you Safiya. I told her that the problem with her is that if she she begins to like/love someone, she will love them without any reserves.That she forgets herself.I told her, its not good that way.That, if she does that way, then she had to suffer a lot in the future.

Safiya, please come to terms with yourself.Safiya, you are a mother and a wife. I was just a friend.Only a friend, nothing more, nothing less.I wont forget you, it will be a shame to forget such a loving, caring, understanding friend such as you.I will always love you.

Well...

Finally, I got the news that my visa is ready...Am i happy? Of course I am...but ill be more when i finally get it in my own hands...so looking forward!!

Even the Sun sets!..(just a crazy title,thts all )

Its almost my a month since my last post..I had time, but i was lazy basically!!..
Well, let me continue where i left...
On 25th August  at around 11:50 pm, Nancy called me to say a goodbye.Bye Nancy, I wish you good luck, and ill pray for you.Thanks for listening to all my rubbish and useless talks..hehe

During the time between then and now, nothing special happened. Except for one thing. I had contacted a college for my admission in Dubai.They said its all  right to come and study there.And so I even ended up paying the fees even.So now, here am I, waiting for my UAE Visa.Once i get hold of it.My stay in Ireland is numbered.In fact classes have already started there, so i have to be quick!

But Im not getting too excited about this.Once I get the visa, ill get excited..hehe.Again God plays a role here..is it not God?

My college here have already started on 14th.But i never went.Why should I ? Nevertheless Im sure that Safiya feels sad.She have been saying me to come back.She says there's no one like a friend as me, to her.

Well today,I went to college to see her.She was very happy to see me.And it was only then I told her that I payed the fees for my "future-college".Hearing that, she went silent for a while.I could see that it was kind of painful for her.She said that till today she had a little hope that i will come back,but after hearing this..all hopes are lost. She asked me "Why are you doing this to me?"..haa!..Safiya, I know how much you like me, but things don't always goes as we wish to.She said "I wished I never met you!".She asked "Why are you leaving me alone here?".I reassured her that she is not alone, and she will get used to it.She said  "I cant forget you" and that no one can replace me.Hmm..Safiya, I know you are a good friend and Ill always miss you wherever I go..just like you.

So,thats 4 today i guess..ill try to see her again and again..till then, for now,byeee!!

Bye Nancy!

Today is the last day for Nancy here in Irish soil.I wish all my good luck and all my prayers to you "chechi" (elder sister in my language).I called her and send her SMS, but she dint respond.Its Ok, she must b busy.You were a good friend to me too.Thank you!

A bye-bye

It was a beautiful morning, with lots of sunshine! And yeah  I went to see Safiya today in college.I had to wait half an hour outside for her, during which i really enjoyed the sun.

Well, I told her that I may be leaving soon and that this may be our last meeting.But the funny thing is that , she said she had the feeling that its not the last time.I told her not say that and I wanted to leave.She told she will miss me so much, and asked me to stay to complete my studies here.She said, its better for me and better for my mother.I replied saying “let God decide everything”.We talked a bit more and then left.

Safiya, I too will miss you so much if I leave.

Pure Laziness!!

I was not posting since the past few weeks (a month or so) as there was nothing new or remarkable to be posted and that because i was being lazy to write something here.
Anyways, something is better than nothing, so i thought of posting something…mmm
Well..Nancy will b leaving soon from here.She was a good friend/big sis for me.I wish her good luck and she will be definitely in my prayers (as before)..
Then mmm..O yeah..Safiya is doing her repeats at the moment and she has her last exam tomorrow.I wanted to see her badly, maybe tomorrow I will be able to.It'll be a surprise for her  if she sees me.
And yeah..about my departure…its not yet decided.I have tried few colleges, but something or the other comes in between and I leave it..This is also one of the reason why i wanted to see Safiya, cos if I am leaving, it’ll be the last chance of seeing her!! Gosh! I don't have anything to give it to her..only empty hands!!
In the meantime I happened to be in possession of a book kindly given by my aunt.Its “More About Fatima by Rev.V.Montes de Oca, C.S.Sp.”.Its a 2005 reprint of the first one in 1945.Ill suggest this book to both believers and non believers as it contains less religious jargon and to me it seems more of as a history book.But yeah..there are “messages” which either you can believe in..or you can just see it as a fantasy.Its your life and its you wish!
Before even i finish this book, i took another one from my local library.Its titled “Mother of God a history of The Virgin Mary by Miri Rubin.Its a 424 pages book and I wonder if Ill be able to finish it (I don't finish the books i take  or start reading…maybe its because I don't get the time or maybe its all an infatuation,although the latter seems more true).
That’s it  4 now!!..Peace

Howdy Harry?

Yesterday I went to see the new Harry Potter movie at the cinema.Although I lost my interest in the Harry Potter series long back, I went because i had never gone to the cinemas in Ireland since i came here.The movie was OK.Ill give it a rating of 7/10.

Then,something interesting did happen today..which ill probably say it later.

Is being younger better?..(I mean... for having healthier kids)

I just read an article about the effects of aging men getting married late...it definitely sounds interesting to me...
You can follow it here .Its worth a read!!

Sorry!

I did not write anything since about 2 months!.Ok..so last month i went to India for my holidays.It was great.I liked it.I came back on 29th.
The exams were Ok..although it was very hard for me.I secured 2.8 GPA out of 4.And my overall GPA was 3.17.Thank you Lord for all your help.And so since i lost my interest in Chemistry, i decided to go for a BDS course in Bangalore.I had plans to go to Australia for nursing.It would have only taken 2 years compared to 4 years for BDS.But since my family said nursing is not good..im going for BDS.The course starts next month(i think)
Ok since my arrival, I haven't talked about this to Safiya.It was only today i told her this.This was the conversation we had.It will be left incomplete for personal reasons.


“Safiya: Hi Sanju how are you you sure you will not come next year and you will be in india..
Me: ….Im not sure Safiya,I have to wait ….
Safiya:….ok Sanju if you decided to leave me i cant say any thing just good luck i am happy for you but sad about my self ill miss you so so so much
Me: I wanted to see u 4 the last time.Safiya,im sure i will not  get a great friend as u.
Safiya:When you will go to india again
Me: ill go most probably on 3rd next month.Safiya, if u r feeling sad..just think about my mother.I dont know wht to say Safiya.
Safiya: You mean 3rd of 8
Me: Yes Safiya,next month...its very near..
Safiya: Why you doing that to me Sanju you surprising me you will leave me alone in this college
Safiya: You know me i am strong but this time i am cring Sanju
Me: Safiya read my message which i sent u on 29th.I said i will b sad and i said i will say to l8r.
Safiya please dont cry..u are  elder than me.
Me: Safiya if u will cry then,i too will feel to cry.You are strong Safiya, u can face it.Im sure.
Safiya:Ill face it but ill suffer and need time to cope. you will leave me suffering.
Me: Safiya.I dont know wht to say Safiya, its Ok. You know, such things will happen.It is very painful but.Please pray,wht else can i say to u..
Me: Safiya,try to cope.Safiya, I dont have a friend like you and i only have 1 friend here and thts u.You were good to me Safiya.You took good care of me.
Safiya: You sure you will go and not come back again
Me: I dont think i will come back...if mother comes there for her holidays nxt year,then i wont b able to come here
Safiya: Ok .i cant say anything. Good luck Sanju
Me: Safiya, dont worry! You will always be in my heart.I will always think about the times we had together.I loved you sooo much Safiya.I will always love u,even far.
Me: Safiya,its actually my fault Safiya.If had more friends here,or if i had a job here,I would not have left you.Im sorry Safiya to do like this.
Me: Safiya talk to me when u r free till next month..ok?txt me or call me.This is the reason y i said b4, i need to hear your voice.
Safiya: Ill text you later i cant do any thing now
Me: Safiya, i have not felt this way ever before in my Life.You were so close to me.Im crying now…….”

So you see, it feels awful (for both of us)….

A small poem from me

This is a short poem which i started yesterday, finished today.For a long time, i had this feeling to draw or to write a poem..now since i dint find my pencil and eraser in my messy room..i decided to go 4 a poem and poem it became...here it is...enjoy..(click to enlarge)

Back!

Im back after a small break of a month or so.I went to my country for my holidays.It was good and the weather was kind to us most of the time.
The exam results were out on 17th but i was not able to check it out.It was on 19th or 20th(can't remember) I saw my results.It was good compared to what i expected.My GPA was 3.17 out of 4.If i got above 3.25 ....it would have been a distinction.But im definitely happy about my results.I never expected to get good results.Thank God!..and thanks for all my friends (especially Safiya, Angie and Nancy) prayed for me.I Love u all!..and a BIG Thanks to my dear mum.

What next?!
Well....I may leave Ireland soon...i may go to Bangalore to do a BDS course.its a 4 year(or 5) course..I may leave my mum behind..and its gonna be deadly painfull..I hope we both can cope on..
I Love my mum sooooooooooooooo much!! Thinking about it makes me sad...but God will help...

Phew!

The exams were really hard..i think i could have done it better...anyways..leave it! now its vacation!
The reason why am writing today's Blog is because..
I read another interesting article which says " Irish people spends 9.5 hours moaning each week"..
People mainly moaned for "bad weather"..then for tiredness, traffic and work...

Although i dint take part in the survey, I too moan about the weather here!..

This small article could be found by clicking here

Exams!

Im in the middle of my exams rite now.I finished two of my exams.They were Analytical Chemistry and Statistics.Statistics seemed difficult.Thank God it had the least points (i think)..

Yesterday I scared Nancy( my non-relational elder sister/ friend) saying i wont write the exam and i will repeat it on August…haa i think she got really scared! I then called her(for the first time)…saying it was a joke and that she did not have to worry…..I see her as my elder sister and i love her so much…i wish i could spend more time with her, but unfortunately she will be goin to Australia..it makes me kinda sad..but its Ok…I really hope to see her and Angie soon..and all my other friends there..Another thing i want to write down here is that I saw a dream about them today..I was in Australia!..At least I feel happy when i sleep..hee..I just want to get out of Ireland….

Another good news for me today is the Congress Party had a majority of votes than BJP…although i don't know anything about politics…I have a feeling that Congress is a better party..under the leadership of Manmohan Singh..even though the results are not finalised BJP admitted defeat…

Safiya(one of my close friends) texted me saying she was ill( having low blood pressure)…so she could not study for the next exam sincerely.Ill pray for her….

Be Happy,be healthy...at least when u r a kid!!..hee

Helping your kids to be Happy, or to be focused ...can later prove to be beneficial for their health in adulthood.
In fact the study showed that the female gender is more sensitive to interaction among emotion, behavior and biology.... so girls beware..heee...dont risk ur health by being too sad!

But i wonder why females have more life expectancy than men?...am i correct here?

The details can be found here: http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2009/05/090506144320.htm



My God, the exams starts on this thursday...and im wasting my time....

Unpredictable India!

I was surprised to see in the local newspaper the beggars in Delhi(i dont remember the place exactly..) are trying to learn to speak English..just to beg during the Commonwealth Games to be conducted there.....Where in the world can you find this?Its really strange...

I also read in another article about the Irish people offering help to those who are in need, the hungry, the clothless etc...the OECD praised Ireland's efforts to end poverty....Good work people! Keep it up!

A friend is all you need

I was glad, that Dublin was voted as the friendliest place in Europe.Personally I love the Irish folks, generally speaking they are very helpful and kind.The only thing that i dont like is the weather ..so..I wish Ireland was more sunny...and i wish i had a good friend...

Hi every one...welcome to my first Blog post...frankly speaking, i dont know to Blog, so I will treat this as a Diary..

you can see my other posts by goin here..i may be busy during this month as im having my final exams..and unfortunately i wont be back after next month cos im heading to India....

In the meantime,...i will try to pop in here when im free...c ya!

ഒരു തുടക്കം

ഹല്ലോ എല്ലവര്‍ക്കും എന്‍റെ ബ്ലോഗിലേക് സ്വാഗതം. ഇതു എന്‍റെ ആധ്യത്തെ പോസ്റ്റ് ആണ് ..ചുമ്മാ ഒരു കയ്യി നോക്യത ..മലയാളത്തില്‍ ടൈപ്പ് ചെയ്യാന്‍ ഒരു രസം..കാലം പോയ പോക്കെ !..ഇതു കൊള്ളാം കേട്ടോ ..എന്തോ ഒരു അത്ഭുതം പോലെ ..എനിക്ക് മലയാളം അറിയില്ലന്കില്ലും ,എല്ലാം ശരിയായി വരുന്നു...(i think)

ഞാന്‍ ഇന്ഗ്ലിഷിലോട്ടു മാറും എന്ന് തോന്നുന്നു ....എല്ലാം സമയത്തിന് വിട്ടു കൊടുക്കുന്നു ....

പരിക്ഷ അടുക്കാറായി ..വല്ലോം ഇരുന്നു പഠിക്കേണം ...പരിക്ഷ മെയ്‌ 14th തുടങ്ങും, 22th inu കഴിയും .. 29th inu ഞാന്‍ നാട്ടിലേക്ക് പറക്കും ..wohooooooo!

എന്‍റെ പഴെയ പോസ്റ്റ് എല്ലാം "Windows Space" ilu ആണ് .its link is http://sanju2222.spaces.live.com/....

Oops!

I was too lazy to write during the last month or during the weeks of this month..Basically, i was busy with college.From the date of my previous post till now, there has been both sad, interesting and happy events.

On 15th, my grandmother passed away.She was sick.Its really strange in that on that day we called her and spoke to her.Couple of hours later we heard the bad news.Obviously my mum would be sad, its her mother.We had to go to India,so we booked the next available flight. ….anyway we came back on 23 or 22? (i dont remember)..

So i missed some labs and lectures..

On 23rd of Feb: I called Angie and we spoke for  a long time (half an hour maybe)…

Safiya also told me, why she thinks ................................…I love her so much and will always be like that..

My current course seems difficult, and so im planning of not doing it next year. I may go for nursing or teaching.And if im doing nursing or teaching, that will be in Australia(i hope)..i just want to get out of here.Its going to cost a lot, and as usual my mum’s gonna pay for it. Im so sad of this, im always relying on my mum, and i dont like that.Now she has to work harder and that too with bad health…how can i repay her for her love…

Now only a week or so for college, im looking forward to finish this year, especially this semester. I think this semester is way too hard and moreover most of the modules a credit of 8 unlike previous years or semesters.God help me learn…please…

Ffffreeezing

Yesterday and day-before yesterday it was snowing so much.I have never seen such snow in my entire life.It was also very cold outside.But it was really nice to see everything “dressed” in white..hee…But today there was no snow at all…if there was, some of my classes must have been cancelled..

The college opened and it was nice to see everyone back..especially Safiya..I hope the practicals will be easy..and i dont like the Statistics module..but i will try my best..and of course God will help me…

29th!

Today is 29th and today is the day when Angie leaves for Australia.Well..i feel ok..hee.These things happens in life.I should be prepared for another one soon..there is actually no point in being sad and gloomy. Yes its human feelings, i can understand that but i should tame it lol..Last day she wrote a testimonial for me in one of the social networking websites…it goes like this: "….wat can i say.....he is so sweet and innocent....he is good in his ways...he is a very shy and quite person...somtimes too quite which i dont like....i have tried to change him a lot..not just me but everyone who loves him...he tries his best to change but it seems impossible to him...but i say he will change one day...and i am pretty sure about that...but that is only one aspect of him....looking at him overall he is most sweetest, the most loving and caring chetai anyone cud ever get....i like u very much chetai.....and i am lucky to have met u....and i will miss u chetai...."

Actually i deleted this after reading it, but she asked me why i deleted it so i had to undo it..heee

Its 6:30 now, i think the plane takes off at 7.All i can say now, is that Angie you are a special kind..lol.Thanks for everything, the help,the memories, the company and everything..hee. I Love You….You are now officially certified by my Love..lol…both u and Safiya

My college starts nxt week,looking forward with optimism.

God,bless me and hear me.Im a sinner.A sinner who never cares about you.Who never feels the pain u undergo while I happily sin.Why is it I always think about you after i do something bad, is it guilt..lol…if its guilt I thank you for tht feeling, otherwise I wouldnt even bother to look back on You!

Am i Tall enough?

Today,while i was skimming through my sister’s Geography text book, I noticed photographs of sky-scrappers in various “big” cities around the world.I was wondering when would such a building be built in my country.It has a long way to develop.

But, the pointing of writing this is that, after a couple of hours (like 3 or 4 hours max), as i was reading the news, i saw a headline stating that there is goin to be a tall building to be built in my country.This will be the third tallest in the world.Its worth about 4120 Crores.That's a huge amount of cash.With that much,you can help thousands of poor families.But i guess,that's the hard side of development.The rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer!

Took a book from the library: First Comes Love by Scott Hahn. I wish i could finish it.(Normally i don’t finish books taken from the library as I'm busy with college)

Break..

Ok,i was not able to write since last week because i was not in home.

On 16th before my last exam,as i was waiting for the bus, I saw Angie coming in to the college.She did not at first notice me, but when i called her, she came up to me.She said,she came to college to say “Bye” to all her teachers.(Actually,even i had the same idea of saying thanks to all those teachers who taught me since my first course finished, but till now i haven't done it.Im shy.I may do it in the future.)…So I met her for the last time, this time for sure (I never thought it will b this soon..hee)

The exam was very hard.I think i will get a B or B-. I think it will be the lowest grade since i joined college.But if its God’s wish, there is no one stopping it.

 

I tried out connecting the new Printer.It could not connect to my PC, the PC stated “The device is unknown,and may have some problem”..lol.After hours of trying,changing from one USB port to the next, installing and re-installing the drivers,i finally made it to work.(I think it has to do with the cable, i suspect it to be USB 1 and not USB 2).The first thing i printed was a picture of Jesus, and then a beautiful picture of Blessed Mary…hee

:-(

Today I saw Angie for the last time.I hope to see her soon.(how soon is soon?!).I gave her a chocolate,hee.its the only thing i was able to give her,hee! And moreover that was given to me by my mum.I had it with me for a long time(about a month or so!),i just couldn't get a chance to give it to Angie until now.

Im not going to write much about Angie as it makes me feel sad…

The new Printer Arrived.. 

Alright !

Had a chat session with Nibu on 12th.Was amazed by all those things happening around  and through him.

Today Angie called me(i think 4 the first time) to say that she is goin to Australia on 29th.And she invited for her farewell party.Although i wanted to go,i declined.This was because of my silly behaviour..hee.I will be so quiet and not talk to anyone.So why go?..lol.She said,it doesn’t matter and she will keep me entertained..haaa.C'mon Angie,its your party and you should be with others.You dont have to give all your attention to me.(im not being negative here…im not negative!)

You and Safiya are the only friends i got here.So if u both go away from me,(or something bad happens 2 u both)i will naturally feel sad..hee..But hey I knew from the beginning itself that we have to let go of each other some way in the future,whether its finishing college or goin abroad..Its going to be hard for me,when that happens,but i will learn to survive..hee…But thinking about this,makes me feel that we should not have met in the first place.But then,personally i really had great times with you both.You both helped me in a way that i cant say.I love you both….

Angie,even though we knew each other for only about 3 months or so,i hope you know everything about me.You may have learned something useful from me.Your childish acts always increased my affection towards you.Your chetai will try to change.Thank you for all your inputs in making me a better person.I will try to keep moments with you fresh in my memory even though it may make me sad.

I always wished to be with you (and Safiya) most of the time.But God has other plans and we should respect it.I feel,we all are in a chess board.God motivates us,changes us and moves us from one position to the other.In the process,we meet other people who loves us,who cares about us and who supports us,but when the hands of God plays again, and we will be in positions where we never imagined to be..

Enough 4 now….i have Environmental Exam tomorrow!

Moon

As i lay half awake on my bed this morning, i was just thinking about the recent satellite launch to the moon from my country.I was thinking about the honour it brought to the country(but hey,what about the starving?).I was wondering what will be the robotic probe doing right now.And i was pondering over some of the malfunctions that occurred. …Then i was thinking whether there was an Indian Flag on the moon,if not will it be there in the future?

A couple of hours later, i saw an interesting news.I read it in Yahoo! News.It was about a manned moon mission from India scheduled in 2020.

Whether it was coincidence or not..i don't know..lol

This is the second time something like this is  happening to me.The first one was about an earthquake in Indonesia.One day as i woke up in the morning my thoughts went to Indonesia and the earthquakes happening there.Hours later while i was watching the BBC,i saw the news that a minor(i dont remember it now) earthquake struck somewhere in Indonesia.I think it was not that serious.But the fact that i was thinking about it and later  it  happened amazes me…lol     (By the way,this happened during the last three months or so…i dont remember when)

 

Safiya told me,whts wrong with me..hee

Why?

Today was a not so good day.Well,today Safiya told me that I changed my behaviour from that of last year.I asked her whether it was good or bad.She said “in a bad way”.I asked her what changes did she see in me.She said she will not say it..hee.Personally,I think i did not change a bit,Im still the same.I wonder what made her say that.The only thing I can think of is not giving her enough attention.Whatever it is, Im sorry Safiya.Thanks for saying it to me,but you should have said what is it.Anyway she is and she will be my good friend always.I lover her so much:-)

But this is not the reason why today was not “good enough”.

The reason is that,Safiya fell down on her stomach!It was too windy today,so i guess  mother nature is to be blamed.Man!I dint know what to do.It happened near the exam centre.Her palms were bleeding.We helped her get up.But she said she still wanted to write the exam.I dont believe this! she is pregnant and she fell down on her stomach and yet she still wants do the exam.I was amazed at her determination.Anyways,we took her to a room and we called the ambulance.And YES she missed the exam! The exam was about to start so,i went for it.But i cried in the hall..lol.I could not really concentrate on the exam,i was thinking about her.I got angry with God..lol.I asked him,why did he do it.What benefit will come out of  this?And i told him that if he did it,then he is not God but Devil.I got so angry at him,poor Safiya.She is frail as a butterfly,and innocent as a child.Why did this happen to her? But hey..i can not be angry to God, he is my everything, and so i said sorry…lol.(God i know you can understand me)

The funny thing is that she told me she is goin to repeat the exam on 8th.She said this through texting, this is what she said “Repeat is so hard for my family and new baby”.She said this because of the amount and the materials that needed to be studied.

Now all i ask God is to take good take of her.

Exam Feedback

The Analytical exam was good for me,but not too good.There was enough time.Safiya said she may fail.But i dont believe her.She is getting worried for no reasons.I should learn from her,she has strong determination.I mean,she is pregnant and may deliver with the next two weeks.And yet she continues with college life.I love you Safiya,you are really a good friend.

I have Validation for tomorrow.To be honest, i started learning this subject just today…

I upgraded my Messenger,Writer etc, yesterday.There seem to b no change to writer.Messenger changed a bit,although i love the old one..

Phew!

The maths exam was ok,but not great! I would expect to get a B+ or B.Safiya said ,it was ok,but did not get enough time to complete.Same for me, i did not get enough time too.

Tomorrow is Analytical Chemistry,its easy but there is a lot  to remember(about 20 notes)…

 

God, i thank u for making 2days exam ok 4 me…

Exams!!

Tomorrow my Exams starts beginning with Maths!