I did not write anything since about 2 months!.Ok..so last month i went to India for my holidays.It was great.I liked it.I came back on 29th.
The exams were Ok..although it was very hard for me.I secured 2.8 GPA out of 4.And my overall GPA was 3.17.Thank you Lord for all your help.And so since i lost my interest in Chemistry, i decided to go for a BDS course in Bangalore.I had plans to go to Australia for nursing.It would have only taken 2 years compared to 4 years for BDS.But since my family said nursing is not good..im going for BDS.The course starts next month(i think)
Ok since my arrival, I haven't talked about this to Safiya.It was only today i told her this.This was the conversation we had.It will be left incomplete for personal reasons.
“Safiya: Hi Sanju how are you you sure you will not come next year and you will be in india..
Me: ….Im not sure Safiya,I have to wait ….
Safiya:….ok Sanju if you decided to leave me i cant say any thing just good luck i am happy for you but sad about my self ill miss you so so so much
Me: I wanted to see u 4 the last time.Safiya,im sure i will not get a great friend as u.
Safiya:When you will go to india again
Me: ill go most probably on 3rd next month.Safiya, if u r feeling sad..just think about my mother.I dont know wht to say Safiya.
Safiya: You mean 3rd of 8
Me: Yes Safiya,next month...its very near..
Safiya: Why you doing that to me Sanju you surprising me you will leave me alone in this college
Safiya: You know me i am strong but this time i am cring Sanju
Me: Safiya read my message which i sent u on 29th.I said i will b sad and i said i will say to l8r.
Safiya please dont cry..u are elder than me.
Me: Safiya if u will cry then,i too will feel to cry.You are strong Safiya, u can face it.Im sure.
Safiya:Ill face it but ill suffer and need time to cope. you will leave me suffering.
Me: Safiya.I dont know wht to say Safiya, its Ok. You know, such things will happen.It is very painful but.Please pray,wht else can i say to u..
Me: Safiya,try to cope.Safiya, I dont have a friend like you and i only have 1 friend here and thts u.You were good to me Safiya.You took good care of me.
Safiya: You sure you will go and not come back again
Me: I dont think i will come back...if mother comes there for her holidays nxt year,then i wont b able to come here
Safiya: Ok .i cant say anything. Good luck Sanju
Me: Safiya, dont worry! You will always be in my heart.I will always think about the times we had together.I loved you sooo much Safiya.I will always love u,even far.
Me: Safiya,its actually my fault Safiya.If had more friends here,or if i had a job here,I would not have left you.Im sorry Safiya to do like this.
Me: Safiya talk to me when u r free till next month..ok?txt me or call me.This is the reason y i said b4, i need to hear your voice.
Safiya: Ill text you later i cant do any thing now
Me: Safiya, i have not felt this way ever before in my Life.You were so close to me.Im crying now…….”
So you see, it feels awful (for both of us)….
The exams were Ok..although it was very hard for me.I secured 2.8 GPA out of 4.And my overall GPA was 3.17.Thank you Lord for all your help.And so since i lost my interest in Chemistry, i decided to go for a BDS course in Bangalore.I had plans to go to Australia for nursing.It would have only taken 2 years compared to 4 years for BDS.But since my family said nursing is not good..im going for BDS.The course starts next month(i think)
Ok since my arrival, I haven't talked about this to Safiya.It was only today i told her this.This was the conversation we had.It will be left incomplete for personal reasons.
“Safiya: Hi Sanju how are you you sure you will not come next year and you will be in india..
Me: ….Im not sure Safiya,I have to wait ….
Safiya:….ok Sanju if you decided to leave me i cant say any thing just good luck i am happy for you but sad about my self ill miss you so so so much
Me: I wanted to see u 4 the last time.Safiya,im sure i will not get a great friend as u.
Safiya:When you will go to india again
Me: ill go most probably on 3rd next month.Safiya, if u r feeling sad..just think about my mother.I dont know wht to say Safiya.
Safiya: You mean 3rd of 8
Me: Yes Safiya,next month...its very near..
Safiya: Why you doing that to me Sanju you surprising me you will leave me alone in this college
Safiya: You know me i am strong but this time i am cring Sanju
Me: Safiya read my message which i sent u on 29th.I said i will b sad and i said i will say to l8r.
Safiya please dont cry..u are elder than me.
Me: Safiya if u will cry then,i too will feel to cry.You are strong Safiya, u can face it.Im sure.
Safiya:Ill face it but ill suffer and need time to cope. you will leave me suffering.
Me: Safiya.I dont know wht to say Safiya, its Ok. You know, such things will happen.It is very painful but.Please pray,wht else can i say to u..
Me: Safiya,try to cope.Safiya, I dont have a friend like you and i only have 1 friend here and thts u.You were good to me Safiya.You took good care of me.
Safiya: You sure you will go and not come back again
Me: I dont think i will come back...if mother comes there for her holidays nxt year,then i wont b able to come here
Safiya: Ok .i cant say anything. Good luck Sanju
Me: Safiya, dont worry! You will always be in my heart.I will always think about the times we had together.I loved you sooo much Safiya.I will always love u,even far.
Me: Safiya,its actually my fault Safiya.If had more friends here,or if i had a job here,I would not have left you.Im sorry Safiya to do like this.
Me: Safiya talk to me when u r free till next month..ok?txt me or call me.This is the reason y i said b4, i need to hear your voice.
Safiya: Ill text you later i cant do any thing now
Me: Safiya, i have not felt this way ever before in my Life.You were so close to me.Im crying now…….”
So you see, it feels awful (for both of us)….
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