I stand with the people of my state Kerala. Monsoon rains has cause widespread floods and landslides. May them recover well and hope they get resettled with the help of authorities.
But its dumbfounding how some can be so heartless in these situations and that too because of caste and religion. It was reported some Christians were unwilling to stay in a relief camp where they felt there were with others of lesser status than them.
Above 300 lost their lives and then this is what happens.
After sending more than 90 job applications, I am finally employed. I thank friends, acquaintances and family for their prayers. Even though the job is not anywhere close to the academic qualifications I have, I think at least I have a footing. The job pertains helping elderly with their fluid intake. I experience a sense of satisfaction and humility from this job.
Ronitta has finally cleared her OET exam. This too is a blessing from God. Now God willing we will be with my mom. It will take time and have setbacks but I am hoping to put everything at His feet.
Even in the midst of all these good news, there are times when I let God down. It all comes down to selfishness and instant gratification. But I hope He understands.
I used to waste a lot of time with my phone playing games and respecting my assurance to God that I would stop this once Ronitta gets OET, and so I now have stopped playing.
We can't really promise anything to God. Our words, actions and intentions sway from the most banal and corrupt to the most immaculate and pure. Our only choice is to constantly change to be good to God and all around. The way to perfection is long and hard, but each step takes us forward.
Mathew 5:48
Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Here it's pretty obvious that no one wants to be perfect. You can only define perfection once you have achieved it. With God bein perfect and we being created with His perfect image, you may ask why then we cause trouble and rebellion.
Maybe God wants to make us understand that yes we all are born perfect. But once we reach the stage where the world teaches us imperfection, we are made corrupt. So maybe God wants us to return to the initial stage He created us. Without prejudice, without sin and evil. I think this is what He cares. To accept that it is impossible to be perfect without His help and to be in accordance with His view of perfection.
But unfortunately like me there are few who always struggle between perfection and imperfections. If I take two steps forward, I sadly willingly take three steps backwards.
I need to change my choices and priorities.
Ever since I have got my work permit I have been applying for jobs but it seems I am not the one that employers are looking for. Maybe I don't have the necessary experience or maybe they need someone who can be vetted. Don't know why, but I feel frustrated. Each time I apply for a job, I build castles in the air. Thinking how I can earn myself, how I can be independent and sorts. God gave us this life to live and not to squander it. Living on someone else's earnings is not living at all but parasitism.
I don't know what God wants me to do. Stretched before me is no road but uncertainty and the unknown.
Today is Good Friday and I have implored from my hearts depth for giving me a job or lead me down a path where I can fend for my family.
My last post said we were looking for a home and thank God, we found one. Although it has no bedroom, we are happy to have a roof under our head. The living room becomes our bedroom. The rent is a bit costly but we can't really complain.
So that's that.
In retrospect, I have been with unrequited love from my school years up to even the month before my marriage. During all these time, I have expressed my love in varying ways to all the girls I liked. For it is my desire that the other person knows my feelings. I don't like playing games, nor wasting time. Pain and sadness often follows these expression of love episodes. Girls move on all too quickly.
Now, tomorrow will be our second wedding anniversary. Ron has been in my life for two years now. Wow! Of course our marriage was arranged, that we were strangers but that doesn't matter because there's love between us. I had no job and she said yes. Yesterday, she was asking me when will she see me being angry at her. Surely there are fights, the sulking and the silence but in the end love brings us back. I am usually the silent one and who takes all her wrath. But I don't mind because, most if not all the time, it's my fault. Besides, I rarely retaliate, be it her or anyone for that matter.
She is patient with me and encourages me to take risks in life and above all loves me the way it should be.
I'm just beginning my family life and since I am still without a job, I have applied for few jobs and I am waiting for the outcome. As always God provides.
Thank God for I got my work permit. Now all I have to do is find a job. Yesterday I have applied to the Office of the Clerk for an editorial position. They had asked for references but since all my references are in India, I didn't fill it in. But I said I will produce it once it's demanded. Now then there is the issue of not knowing much Maori. I'm new to New Zealand but I think I can learn the language and culture as I go.
Now if I am accepted.. man! .. that's what we call..a miracle.
But I am grateful to God for at least leading me to this opportunity. Thank you Father.
Onto 2018 and I thank God for keeping me safe, healthy and happy. I don't have a job yet, but that's because I can't legally work. Once I am granted work rights, I hope to get a job. Till then depending on Ron.
But the most pressing matter is we are running out of time to get a new home. Our current agreement is getting over soon. Since New Zealand has high rates of homeless people, it's no wonder that there are few homes in the market.
Because Ron is the only one who puts bread on the table, anything beyond $250 per week is not even worth looking.
Now this is what I call irony is: We have one home in India that's empty and another in Ireland that's for rented.
Again casting our eyes to the sky hoping God do something. It's not that we haven't gone house hunting, it's either expensive or not to our liking or our application not being processed.
