29th!

Today is 29th and today is the day when Angie leaves for Australia.Well..i feel ok..hee.These things happens in life.I should be prepared for another one soon..there is actually no point in being sad and gloomy. Yes its human feelings, i can understand that but i should tame it lol..Last day she wrote a testimonial for me in one of the social networking websites…it goes like this: "….wat can i say.....he is so sweet and innocent....he is good in his ways...he is a very shy and quite person...somtimes too quite which i dont like....i have tried to change him a lot..not just me but everyone who loves him...he tries his best to change but it seems impossible to him...but i say he will change one day...and i am pretty sure about that...but that is only one aspect of him....looking at him overall he is most sweetest, the most loving and caring chetai anyone cud ever get....i like u very much chetai.....and i am lucky to have met u....and i will miss u chetai...."

Actually i deleted this after reading it, but she asked me why i deleted it so i had to undo it..heee

Its 6:30 now, i think the plane takes off at 7.All i can say now, is that Angie you are a special kind..lol.Thanks for everything, the help,the memories, the company and everything..hee. I Love You….You are now officially certified by my Love..lol…both u and Safiya

My college starts nxt week,looking forward with optimism.

God,bless me and hear me.Im a sinner.A sinner who never cares about you.Who never feels the pain u undergo while I happily sin.Why is it I always think about you after i do something bad, is it guilt..lol…if its guilt I thank you for tht feeling, otherwise I wouldnt even bother to look back on You!

Am i Tall enough?

Today,while i was skimming through my sister’s Geography text book, I noticed photographs of sky-scrappers in various “big” cities around the world.I was wondering when would such a building be built in my country.It has a long way to develop.

But, the pointing of writing this is that, after a couple of hours (like 3 or 4 hours max), as i was reading the news, i saw a headline stating that there is goin to be a tall building to be built in my country.This will be the third tallest in the world.Its worth about 4120 Crores.That's a huge amount of cash.With that much,you can help thousands of poor families.But i guess,that's the hard side of development.The rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer!

Took a book from the library: First Comes Love by Scott Hahn. I wish i could finish it.(Normally i don’t finish books taken from the library as I'm busy with college)

Break..

Ok,i was not able to write since last week because i was not in home.

On 16th before my last exam,as i was waiting for the bus, I saw Angie coming in to the college.She did not at first notice me, but when i called her, she came up to me.She said,she came to college to say “Bye” to all her teachers.(Actually,even i had the same idea of saying thanks to all those teachers who taught me since my first course finished, but till now i haven't done it.Im shy.I may do it in the future.)…So I met her for the last time, this time for sure (I never thought it will b this soon..hee)

The exam was very hard.I think i will get a B or B-. I think it will be the lowest grade since i joined college.But if its God’s wish, there is no one stopping it.

 

I tried out connecting the new Printer.It could not connect to my PC, the PC stated “The device is unknown,and may have some problem”..lol.After hours of trying,changing from one USB port to the next, installing and re-installing the drivers,i finally made it to work.(I think it has to do with the cable, i suspect it to be USB 1 and not USB 2).The first thing i printed was a picture of Jesus, and then a beautiful picture of Blessed Mary…hee

:-(

Today I saw Angie for the last time.I hope to see her soon.(how soon is soon?!).I gave her a chocolate,hee.its the only thing i was able to give her,hee! And moreover that was given to me by my mum.I had it with me for a long time(about a month or so!),i just couldn't get a chance to give it to Angie until now.

Im not going to write much about Angie as it makes me feel sad…

The new Printer Arrived.. 

Alright !

Had a chat session with Nibu on 12th.Was amazed by all those things happening around  and through him.

Today Angie called me(i think 4 the first time) to say that she is goin to Australia on 29th.And she invited for her farewell party.Although i wanted to go,i declined.This was because of my silly behaviour..hee.I will be so quiet and not talk to anyone.So why go?..lol.She said,it doesn’t matter and she will keep me entertained..haaa.C'mon Angie,its your party and you should be with others.You dont have to give all your attention to me.(im not being negative here…im not negative!)

You and Safiya are the only friends i got here.So if u both go away from me,(or something bad happens 2 u both)i will naturally feel sad..hee..But hey I knew from the beginning itself that we have to let go of each other some way in the future,whether its finishing college or goin abroad..Its going to be hard for me,when that happens,but i will learn to survive..hee…But thinking about this,makes me feel that we should not have met in the first place.But then,personally i really had great times with you both.You both helped me in a way that i cant say.I love you both….

Angie,even though we knew each other for only about 3 months or so,i hope you know everything about me.You may have learned something useful from me.Your childish acts always increased my affection towards you.Your chetai will try to change.Thank you for all your inputs in making me a better person.I will try to keep moments with you fresh in my memory even though it may make me sad.

I always wished to be with you (and Safiya) most of the time.But God has other plans and we should respect it.I feel,we all are in a chess board.God motivates us,changes us and moves us from one position to the other.In the process,we meet other people who loves us,who cares about us and who supports us,but when the hands of God plays again, and we will be in positions where we never imagined to be..

Enough 4 now….i have Environmental Exam tomorrow!

Moon

As i lay half awake on my bed this morning, i was just thinking about the recent satellite launch to the moon from my country.I was thinking about the honour it brought to the country(but hey,what about the starving?).I was wondering what will be the robotic probe doing right now.And i was pondering over some of the malfunctions that occurred. …Then i was thinking whether there was an Indian Flag on the moon,if not will it be there in the future?

A couple of hours later, i saw an interesting news.I read it in Yahoo! News.It was about a manned moon mission from India scheduled in 2020.

Whether it was coincidence or not..i don't know..lol

This is the second time something like this is  happening to me.The first one was about an earthquake in Indonesia.One day as i woke up in the morning my thoughts went to Indonesia and the earthquakes happening there.Hours later while i was watching the BBC,i saw the news that a minor(i dont remember it now) earthquake struck somewhere in Indonesia.I think it was not that serious.But the fact that i was thinking about it and later  it  happened amazes me…lol     (By the way,this happened during the last three months or so…i dont remember when)

 

Safiya told me,whts wrong with me..hee

Why?

Today was a not so good day.Well,today Safiya told me that I changed my behaviour from that of last year.I asked her whether it was good or bad.She said “in a bad way”.I asked her what changes did she see in me.She said she will not say it..hee.Personally,I think i did not change a bit,Im still the same.I wonder what made her say that.The only thing I can think of is not giving her enough attention.Whatever it is, Im sorry Safiya.Thanks for saying it to me,but you should have said what is it.Anyway she is and she will be my good friend always.I lover her so much:-)

But this is not the reason why today was not “good enough”.

The reason is that,Safiya fell down on her stomach!It was too windy today,so i guess  mother nature is to be blamed.Man!I dint know what to do.It happened near the exam centre.Her palms were bleeding.We helped her get up.But she said she still wanted to write the exam.I dont believe this! she is pregnant and she fell down on her stomach and yet she still wants do the exam.I was amazed at her determination.Anyways,we took her to a room and we called the ambulance.And YES she missed the exam! The exam was about to start so,i went for it.But i cried in the hall..lol.I could not really concentrate on the exam,i was thinking about her.I got angry with God..lol.I asked him,why did he do it.What benefit will come out of  this?And i told him that if he did it,then he is not God but Devil.I got so angry at him,poor Safiya.She is frail as a butterfly,and innocent as a child.Why did this happen to her? But hey..i can not be angry to God, he is my everything, and so i said sorry…lol.(God i know you can understand me)

The funny thing is that she told me she is goin to repeat the exam on 8th.She said this through texting, this is what she said “Repeat is so hard for my family and new baby”.She said this because of the amount and the materials that needed to be studied.

Now all i ask God is to take good take of her.

Exam Feedback

The Analytical exam was good for me,but not too good.There was enough time.Safiya said she may fail.But i dont believe her.She is getting worried for no reasons.I should learn from her,she has strong determination.I mean,she is pregnant and may deliver with the next two weeks.And yet she continues with college life.I love you Safiya,you are really a good friend.

I have Validation for tomorrow.To be honest, i started learning this subject just today…

I upgraded my Messenger,Writer etc, yesterday.There seem to b no change to writer.Messenger changed a bit,although i love the old one..

Phew!

The maths exam was ok,but not great! I would expect to get a B+ or B.Safiya said ,it was ok,but did not get enough time to complete.Same for me, i did not get enough time too.

Tomorrow is Analytical Chemistry,its easy but there is a lot  to remember(about 20 notes)…

 

God, i thank u for making 2days exam ok 4 me…

Exams!!

Tomorrow my Exams starts beginning with Maths!