Faithless

It's very hard to have faith in someone you can't see.  And I'm trying my best to have just that. Recently I had this amazing Facebook post on my updates which goes something like this:

Man: Show and I'll believe.
God: Believe and I'll show.

Dear God, I ask you to gimme faith so that I can trust in you. Jesus you said " Don't worry, have faith". But worry is all we do.

God has given me more than enough occasions to trust in Him. Still, it's hard to believe in something which you doubt. Doubt cos my sins. Doubt cos of lack of faith.
But I'm trying in little ways to increase my faith, and I can tell you...I'm encouraged.

Few Bible passages to cheer me up:

Luke 12: 22-25
Jesus said to his disciples:
I tell you not to worry about your life! Don’t worry about having something to eat or wear. Life is more than food or clothing.  Look at the crows! They don’t plant or harvest, and they don’t have storehouses or barns. But God takes care of them. You are much more important than any birds. Can worry make you live longer? If you don’t have power over small things, why worry about everything else?


Matthew 14:25-31
 A little while before morning, Jesus came walking on the water toward his disciples. When they saw him, they thought he was a ghost. They were terrified and started screaming.
At once, Jesus said to them, “Don’t worry! I am Jesus. Don’t be afraid.”
Peter replied, “Lord, if it is really you, tell me to come to you on the water.”
“Come on!” Jesus said. Peter then got out of the boat and started walking on the water toward him.
But when Peter saw how strong the wind was, he was afraid and started sinking. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted.
Right away, Jesus reached out his hand. He helped Peter up and said, “You surely don’t have much faith. Why do you doubt?”

Matthew 15:25-28
 The woman came closer. Then she knelt down and begged, “Please help me, Lord!”
Jesus replied, “It isn’t right to take food away from children and feed it to dogs.”
“Lord, that’s true,” the woman said, “but even dogs get the crumbs that fall from their owner’s table.” Jesus answered, “Dear woman, you really do have a lot of faith, and you will be given what you want.” At that moment her daughter was healed.

Mark 5:34-36
Jesus said to the woman, “You are now well because of your faith. May God give you peace! You are healed, and you will no longer be in pain.”
While Jesus was still speaking, some men came from Jairus' home and said, “Your daughter has died! Why bother the teacher anymore?”
Jesus heard what they said, and he said to Jairus, “Don’t worry. Just have faith!”
  

Gate of Heaven

A small poem I wrote long back:

Dear Mother

Hear my prayer

My prayers you have heard before

Make me pray ever more

Through thorns I may tread

With your womb’s bread

Make it a path of roses

Where no door closes

My gate of heaven

Shut me not

Grant me what I seek

For this sinner ever so meek

Virgin most faithful

Where should I go when looking for faith when I have none. To whom  should I approach other than my mother Mary for this “little” thing. Her Son talks about faith throughout his life in the Bible. How do I obtain such a faith when being a sinner fear to approach Him. My sins call out. It separates me from His love, His grace. Is there any hope?

Alas, there is such a  way. An easy  way in fact.  To lead me to Him. It’s the way by which He came to earth and it’s the same way one can go to Him. The Marian way.

There are occasions when we as a child fear to present ourselves to our dad. But then, here comes our dear mom vouching for us. Obtaining what we have asked for. Likewise can we obtain graces through our dear Mary?

Will she accepts us as we are? Is there any prerequisites?

I think all we need is faith. Complete and hones faith in her. How do I get it? Do I have to just ask her in my prayers? Is it freely given?

When Jesus was at Cana during the wedding, what did He tell her concerning the wine business?

First, Jesus had no choice but to listen to His mother. Second, the wedding was saved through her by Him.

So for me, it seems, the servants trusted Mary. They obeyed her and had faith in her. That’s why they did as she told them to, without questioning. If it was me there I would be like “ It’s just plain water, what good can come from it?”.

I guess I just have to trust her. That’s all. Pray to her devotedly, she knows I am a sinner. But at her request she can change a lot of things J.

 As before---waiting for a blessing. Ignore my sins dear Lord. If not. I have no hope.