When boredom kicks in!

Felt bored and do drew these two. They are currently my two favourites. One is Mary, the other is obvious.

Not knowing, ever hoping!

These words that I write helps me in little ways. For I can freely open my heart. Without fearing, without restriction. No lies...only truth. I can write anything under the sun...as I please. But like being careful of what I speak...should I be careful here? I don't know.

Anyways...as I write these my head is full of nothing but Susan. I don't know what to say nor think. Bur here I am writing.
Yesterday I messaged her...i dint expect a reply cos she rarely replies. And then she replied something like this "Please don't think about me anymore, and please marry another girl". I was happy that she replied but stumped with the content.hee
I can only imagine why she said so. I have no clue. Ok I know I lack most "qualities" a boy lack. Im sometimes soo innocent that it may annoy you. I know i can be too sentimental at times. And I sometimes is soo adamant.
Maybe these made her say so. Or she might like another guy whom she mentioned before (which is quite difficult for me to believe cos me being a fool).
Or she might be so sad thinking about her family. That she is nowhere where she should be. In other words she has other priorities.
The last one might be the most plausible...but what should I think and act i dont know.
Ill try remain the same...not knowing, ever hoping :)