Tuesday 19 August 2014

All well except...

It's going fine for me. I meant my course. I'm not overworked but I fear I don't get enough sleep. My prayers has taken a dip. It's not that I don't care but my body feels so tired. Still it surprises me to see myself idling away the free time when I could just close my eyes and pray. It's been 3 or 4 weeks since my last confession and I hope I keep myself checked.
I often, if not always, see my one of silly requests being granted through prayer again and again. It can't be called a prayer I guess. I just ask " God can you show me the name 'Susan' anywhere?" while I'm traveling outside. And sure enough I see her name.

Yesterday I had to go out and I asked the same thing. By night I still hadn't seen it. So I was like "OK fine". I then happened to stop at a shop and there, a couple of yards from me a stood another shop with her name.

Now I dunno what this is? Is my mind playing tricks or is it a divine intervention? I mean, I nearly always get to see her name whenever I ask. Y is it so? Does my mind transmit some kind of waves so that the environment behaves as I do? This is totally strange!

Am I doubting God? I dunno.

I have no clue how or where Susan is. I believe she is not married yet or in another relationship. Call me a fool. Call me blind. I don't care. Its a month or since we talked.

C'mon I'm not saying she is perfect. But she is perfect for me. Im not saying I'm perfect...but I really hope she likes me all my imperfections. She was fine with me...but something irked her...dunno what.

Between Two Minds

Where my mind leads
There I go
To heavens and hell below
Of places seen and unseen
To faces warm and cold
Old and new ones time behold
Where memories pave
The way both happy and grave
And so I go
To where my mind shows...