Life is a Game!

Today i finished playing the latest Tomb Raider game (Tomb Raider Underworld)...it was easy compared to TRA and i finished within 4 days..lol..

Now back to study...i have exams in January..heee

I was sick yesterday..

What the....

 

Today while I was watching the News, I saw something interesting(well...it may b not so interesting)....it was that reporter who threw shoes at George Bush in his visit to Iraq..just to insult him.. 

Phew!

Im a bit happy today,as the Graphics card which i bought last year,worked..lol.I found the solution from one of my threads which i started last year in MSDN Forums.Thank u Lord...!!..haa

Busy as hell!(whatever that means)

 

Ok...its been a long time since i wrote something here.Ok..from my the time between my previous post and this one,a lot of things happened,one of which is that I got a good friend.Her name is Angie.She has my sisters age and her face tells that she is very young..lol.Im not going into the detail about her..all i can say is that she is really sweet and caring..

Well,the reason y am writing this is that, today i recognised i have been making Angie angry for the past 3 days.Well,the reason is simple.I posted a picture of mine in a social networking website.Unfortunately this picture of mine was ugly,because i was not wearing a shirt,and moreover this picture was kinda showing off my body..lol.Personally i dont like posting my picture over the net.I have only put my picture once,but then i had it removed after few moments,unlike this one.

I posted this picture,because one of my friends asked me to.This was the conversation:

So u c, i posted this picture,without even thinking.And besides, i dint even know how to make this picture private..lol...I did something on the settings and felt that, its already in private mode.I was thinking only my friend can see this picture (however that was not the case..haa!)

Today in college i saw Angie,but she did not even notice me..hee( i sent her a message,but there was no reply.).During one of our breaks,i saw her with her sister Nancy.I went to them,but however as i approached them,Angie "just took off"...lol.At first I did not understand what was goin on,but then suddenly it hit me...MY PICTURE!!!.....Nancy called her back and told me what was wrong...hee.Hearing that I felt sad,i felt bad for her.I felt like " Oops,What Have i done!".Nancy then made it "ok" for both of us..haa.But in my heart i felt it bad.I felt really bad,that i felt to cry..lol! Why Am i like this?Why do I hurt people unknowingly?My memory takes back to Addie.Its more or less the same situation today.

Later  that day Angie,came to me asking whether I have seen Nancy,I said "No" and then i said i felt bad...she then said she wont leave unless i say that Im Ok..lol..I told her that,its hard for me to forget the feeling im undergoing.She even said sorry to me..lol.Why I wonder?It was my mistake,and most of all i never knew she will be seeing the picture......But as i write this,everything is fine at the moment.

I was just thinking,what would happen if Nancy was not there.Would Angie never talk 2 me?Im such an Idiot...lol

When i arrived home,mum was not in good mood,because.........it again hurt me because........

Anyway...today was a great day....

Thank you Lord....(I wish i don't complain so much to you...lol)
Oops! I had introduced Nancy and Angie on 19th December...lol

Well!

Last week I had a small chat with Addie.Good to know she is happy.

Peace?!

 

Who is this Shalom that I dreamt of?

Oops!

Need to control what I think and what I feel towards others..

Was sick....

Yet another Year!

My college started this week.Some of the students,were missing.May b they left.
Yesterday i knew Addie has left from the college.Good for her!May God give her a good future.
This year seems tough.
I made a new bank account yesterday,my first account!
This year in college I met some students who r from my own country,they are Nancy,Angie and Basil.

Thank you!

 

Day b4 yesterday b4 I slept,I prayed to God to give me  a job and yesterday  morning  I received a post from AnPost saying that they have a temporary position available  for Indoor Post sorter.So if this from God,I thank him.If everything goes well I will start work on December,but only if God is willing.

Yesterday I met Nana,her child and her husband in the shopping centre.

Again coincidence

Today I met Safiya in the shopping centre.This time I saw her daughter and son and her father.

Geert

Yesterday I heard an interview with Geert Wilders regarding Islam in Newstalk.

Cool!

Finished playing one of my favourite game(TRA),which was started on July 18th.It was a good game,but it was tough(for me..haa!)

Hy!

Lord teach me what u want.Lord U know that Im not so good.I really wonder how did u resist temptations in the desert,please teach me.Lord let me remember you before i do something wrong,not after it.Lord I know Im hurting you,but why dont I feel your pain?Why dont I hear you cry?Is sin blocking the way?Lord teach me..

Today I saw a dream.This was the first time i think Im dreaming about Addie.And there was also one of my classmate.It is really strange as I dont think of them,but I dream of them.There was Vaseem also.He is also one of my classmate about 6 to 7 years b4.I think there was an examination or something.And I think I was planning to help her in her studies 4 the xam.But unfortunately she never appeared.I then saw she and the other girl driving a Vespa like Scooter.Addie was on the back seat.I saw this from a bus or something.But they didnt see me.. 

I think i dreamt about the Pope also,it is so vague now.This may be because I saw him yesterday on the TV in Sydney for the World Youth Day.

The Stations of the Cross in Sydney was touching.The actors played it really well.

weird?!

 

Six months-six days and 6 something???? or six years-six months and six days???

Break?!

I wanted to write,but I always forget about this.On 16th(night time) I texted John asking how did Addie on her exams.He told me she was a "Happy Girl".I asked him what grades she got,but he said, he will rather let her tell me herself when she comes home(on Wed).

Majella texted me asking whether I had all my assignments corrected in Drug Delivery.

I saw Addie online on 18th.She told me,she passed the year.She got four B's and one D.Thank you Lord,you heard our prayer.But she said its not that good,but personally I think she did a great job.

Results are out...!!

Woke up @ 5:50 am.Saw the results @ 6:01 am.The results were really good,in fact it was the highest since I joined college.It was all because of my friends and God.Thank you Lord.I got four A and one B+.The GPA was 3.95 out of 4.I got B+ in drug delivery.My overall GPA for the whole year was 3.58

 

Safiya l8r texted me 2 say that she got two A,two B+ and one B.Her GPA was 3.73.Her overall GPA was 3.74.

I could not ask Addie about her results as she was not online.But @ 7:55pm,I asked John about her.He said she was a happy girl and she did very well.I was really happy 2 hear that.Thank You Lord Again.

Thank you Lord...Thank for being with me..even though I'm a sinner and don't deserve it.

Mum is Sick....

In the afternoon went to the local library,to take some books.I took these books:Do You Want A Miracle by Willie Hughes,Miracles  by C.S.Lewis,Muhammad by Karen Armstrong,The Koran For Dummies by Sohaib Sultan.

I then came back to home after visiting one of my Aunties,and it was at this time my sister told me that my mother was admitted.I then thought about the books which was borrowed.Yes, I want a miracle.Coincidence you may say.But I don't know.

Mum was sick and had to be admitted in the hospital.She was having high blood pressure.I and my sister went to the hospital but only she was allowed to see her.She  then went to one of our nearby family friend's home.This was because she could bring our friend back to the hospital so that I could gain access to the hospital as she is a nurse. During this time I texted Safiya about my mother.And guess what she too was in the hospital.Her mother is sick too.Her mother had an operation and now after the operation she had acquired chest infection.Coincidence you may say.But I don't know.I then went to her and we started chatting .She told me that she was really busy after the exams, and she is now worried about her mother.She said,for the last 3 days,she has been in the Hospital minding her mother.I then asked her why she came to see me,that she should be with her mother right now.She told me she was pregnant,and she can't visit her mother because of "Radiation".Again coincidence,(I can't visit mine,neither can't she visit her mother )or is it?I still don't know.I didn't know what to say to her when she told me she was pregnant.I had both joy and sadness.Joy, because she is pregnant,sad because,maybe she won't come to college again.Well,it's God's wish and nothing can stop it.I knew it long before that, I had to separate from her some day or the other.She is my only friend that loves and cares for me.So naturally I will feel sad.But I won't "cry"(in my heart),because God is doing this(may be to make me stronger).I know I should not depend on her.I will try my best not to think about her.Its hard,but I will try.

While we were talking,Safiya had a phone call and so she was attending it.After about 10 minutes,my sister came along with our family friend.I introduced my sister to Safiya.And then off we(excluding Safiya) went to see my mother.

I saw my mother.She was resting on the hospital bed .But she was fine.There was nothing to fear about.Thank God.

I then texted Safiya, congratulating her for being pregnant.I told her,she should not come to college and should stay home.But she replied that she will study along side her baby..haa! I told her that it will be very difficult and she that she is not strong.But then she told she will come to college.I replied to her that,she is like a "Butterfly".(Well..for me a butterfly is a beautiful creature.It shows its beauty to others and then dies days later.Safiya is like that,she shows her love and care and does not care on her destiny...or is it?).I told her that I will be always there to help her and to "receive her with open arms".God take care of her and her family.

I gave my mobile to mummy. 

Time Goes Fast

Nothing to say or nothing to write.I'm simply wasting my time and hence my holidays...

Glad to know that it was Safiya's son's B'day yesterday.

Summer Holidays...

The exams are finally over!! Thank God.This year is finally over.Now all that's left is to enjoy the summer holidays.

The drug delivery exam was not easy as expected,but it was Ok.Safiya said,she felt it really hard.She said she may fail,but I know,it wont happen.

On Friday,I had to go to college for helping Addie.There was Tim's revision class.After his class,we decided to learn something.And we both benefited from each other.When I'm helping her,I think I'm also learning with her.Any way I'm glad I could help her.We were in the college till about 4pm.

Today's exam was really easy,but I think I made silly mistakes as usual.Safiya said it was easy for her too.

Safiya wished me a good holiday season.But I told her that the holidays will be very boring for me.She said me to find a job and then enjoy.I really wish, I had a job.A job that I like and that I know what to do.

I sent a text message asking Addie to know how it was for her.She said it was good.I'm glad to hear that.God I really wish she gets pass through this year.It was tough for her,but with your help she will have no difficulty.So Lord I pray for her.She really thanked me,in fact she said she dint know how to thank me.These are her own words"I'm so happy, Sanju I dont know how to thank you,so please jus name it...and itl b done.I promise.And it has to b something proper!!! I know what ur like."I replied asking her what she meant,and she replied " i duno,i want to give something back.you did alot for me like".So i just replied back that all I needed from her was her love and care,(same like Safiya) and she dint owe me anything.She doesn't know that I'm sacrificing something for her.If it is successful I will b very happy.For the last 5 or 6 years I have been trying and each time I failed.May be I have a better chance this time.Lord I need your help.

Huh!

The exams were not that great,but it was alright.On Sunday I had to help Addie from the afternoon till about 10pm.I know it is hard for her.I was helping through IM.We dint finish everything,but still.I really wished that it was face to face as it would be much better.

The Inorganic exam was alright for me,but it was horrible for Addie.Even Safiya told me it was not easy.Addie told me to pray that her paper was not corrected too strictly.

The Informatics exam was easy.In fact the lecturer gave us last years paper for revision.I was surprised and happy to see the same question to appear in the final exams.

Tomorrow its Drug Delivery.Hope it will be easy.

Final Exams!!!!!!

2morow is the 1st exam,and its Scientific Analysis.It an "Ok" subject.But there is so much to learn.I was not feeling to study.Dont know why?I had to help Addie.I helped her through IM.She told me she owed me a part of her life.What?! She is crazy..haaaaa!But I like her so much.I don't like her to fall behind and the rest of us not talking notice of her.I don't want any one to suffer.This may sound crazy,as we all have to live with it.Life is harsh,but its not that bad.That's why friends are for.They can ease the pain, a bit.Thank you Addie, I think it  is I who owe u.You always encouraged me and understood me.Thanks.I was happy to hear that I influenced her spiritual life,although I think I didn't do anything.She  seems to b troubled by the exams,but Im sure she can make it.She has the potential.She said she will go to SD after the exams for work.Wow! She is strong and way better than me.Bless and touch her Lord.Lord keep her safe and under your protection.I don't know whether you will hear a sinner's prayer,but still I pray for her.

Im not being too good,or im not showing off.I just don't know why Im like this.What's my purpose in this world,tell me Lord.Love u Lord,Always and Forever.

Strange...

I had to go to the post office again,because the thing I posted came back to my address.There must hav been some mix up.

Saw Umairah online...but  did not chat 4 long,I was busy doin the CA.

Long lost friends

On 28th I met Ayesha and Anisha in Facebook.I have searched for them b4,but couldn't reach them.Well,,its been a long time since I saw them(about 6 or 7 years)..First I was skeptical about it was the same Ayesha,but then she told me it was her.

I got 78 for the Physical chemistry test and Safiya got 81.The Lecturer told us that he is goin to take the highest mark.Thank God.The previous one had let me down(I got 46)..We both were the highest in the class.

Day b4 yesterday, Safiya had asked me if I was having a lover(girlfriend)..or someone like that...I laughed at her..I told her Ist I should find a job,then I will go behind girls..heeee! More over with my behaviour I think no girl will like me...heee! But everything is with God..I leave every thing to him..

 

Had to find the calculation for the inorganic labs.So I and Safiya had go at 4 instead of 1pm.Still we didn't finish it!

Amazing..Or Not So Amazing...

 

Reading strange and complicated stuffs relating to Bible(Mene-Tekel Bible Code)

Again Hard Luck

Today i had to return the graphics card(2600XT),which i bought.I dont know why it doesn't work.This is the 2nd time I'm returning it.And each time i return it,I loose money.

Too Busy!!

Now only one more week for the semester to finish.Thank God!

Cello Tape-heeeee!

Today was a good day.The lab was taking too much time,this was b cos we had to repeat one of the procedures.

Today Hanna was talking too much during the lunch break.Paul was also among us.Safiya couldn't stop laughing at Hanna's words.It was strange,but Im not blaming Hanna.

After the college I and Safiya decided to do one of the Drug delivery reports.We did this b cos we thought we wont get time to finish it later.We have two CA's on Monday so we need to learn.We finished at about 4pm.She and I was happy that it was done.She thanked me a lot,and said I wasn't selfish.That's because she thinks that I helped her in doing the report.She said she won't forget this.Well fair enough!!.

I have a lot of work to finish.I dint even start any of this week's lab reports.That's 4 of them.I have to finish Drug Delivery lab worksheets.That's 2 of them.And I have to study for the CAs.

Dreamzzzzzzzzzz!

Ha,today I dreamt of my father healing a wound on my leg.It was painful but,but he had to heal it anyway.

This is my second time Im dreaming something like this..the other one was about 2 months ago,in that dream  I had inured one of my eyes,there too my father came and tried to heal me...

I don't know what this means but, to me it seems strange...

Back to college...

College resumed yesterday.

Today I had the new lecturer for Physical chemistry.Safiya was absent,her son was sick.

Cycled back home..

Chatted with Myrah in the morning but I saw her still online after my college.Chatted with Addie.

Red Hands....

Well,today was a fine day,the weather was really good.It was really bright outside for most of the time..

I dint study anything because.............

But I learned something today......was sad, however was happy after a few hours........thank u Lord....

Day Summary

Was altogether a good and pleasant day.I actually cried during the Holy Mass,when the Gospel was read out.It was sad to know the pain Jesus endured to save his people.Lord I know u love me,but Lord i know that I'm hurting u always.What kind of person am I?It doesn't seem right to hurt You,and then ask for forgiveness.And on top of that do the same thing again.Lord,I don't know how u see me.When will I learn Lord?

Did some study on Inorganic,although i was stuck at times.

A Good day...

Chatted with Myrah..gud to know she is from Malaysia.

Today i had to go to the college,for taking notes from Skillpad because i had to complete the assignments.I think i was the only one in the college.It was pin drop silence.

Finished at 2,and had to wait half an hour for the bus.It was raining.

Had to complete assignment.Saw Addie online and started chatting.It was good to chat with her,after a long time.I felt happy.

Easter is Near!

Today was the last day in college before the Easter Holidays.Well,the lab(Inorganic Chemistry) was fine.But I don't think other's were happy with their previous lab results(marked). There were a lot of talk goin on about the way it was marked.Before the lab actually started,it was told where we went wrong.Any way I and Safiya were happy with our marks.I got 88 and she got 76 or 81,I don't know which one.I think there were a lot of tension goin on between the demonstrator and the students.I think the marks shud b given fairly.A mark of 33 or 40 can sometime discourage someone.

Today,it was laptop repair day for our IT.I had told Safiya to bring her laptop,so that she could update it.So she brought it today.After the labs,we gave the laptop to be updated,but unfortunately it was showing BSOD.She was surprised to see that.She said it was working perfectly until yesterday night.Seems strange to me,but as usual,you can't trust the digital world, it let's you down when u don't expect anything to go wrong.The guys,then told us to go to the Computer Service room on the top foyer.We gave it there,and was told to collect it back after an hour or something.I had a feeling that they can not repair it.

The Scientific Analyses lecture was good.We had to go to a different classroom.I gave the calculations of the lab to Safiya.

   When v went to collect the laptop,it was closed for lunch.We had to wait about 10 minutes so that it would be 2 "O" clock.When finally it was opened,they told told us that they were still working on it and said to come back half an hour later.Safiya decided to take her mum from the Square in the mean time.She came to Tallaght as she had an appointment.I decided to go with her to the Square.

I saw her mother in the Square.Safiya was actually waiting for her outside,but i didn't know it was her mother at that time.So i was going to text her,asking what her mother wore.But then when I turned my head,to check her,there was Safiya with her.

Her mother saw me and gave me a warm smile.

Saw a documentary  

 
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Iraq Women's Story

This documentary was touching.It showed how the people in Iraq,suffers during the war times. I appreciate the job done by the U.S and it's allies in Iraq,in bringing peace.But personally I think it was more safe when Saddam was there than when the U.S soldiers arrived.I mean, it's easy to destroy a nation but it's not that easy to rebuild it. I really don't know what's happening to this world.I mean,why doesn't violence stop.Why do people think like that? What makes people to blow themselves in a busy street.What makes people to treat prisoners without any feelings?Why can't people reconcile with their brethren?What really goes in the mind of someone who is about to kill somebody?Is it hatred?Is it money and power?Is it drugs?I really wonder what feeds their mind...God please heal this world..God heal me.......

Silly Mistakes

Well,today I got my results for physical chemistry.Guess what,I got 45 out of 100.But I was not sad, in fact I felt it like a joke.Safiya,got 65,which we think is the highest in the class.She did not accept the fact that I was happy.She told me that,at least there would be a small bad feelings about the result in my heart,but I tried hard to convince her the truth.She said,she herself was feeling bad after seeing my paper.It was full of silly mistakes,I couldn't actually believe that I did it so carelessly.I think other students too did bad,because they were not happy with the marks.But I was happy,because at least I understood the subject.

I was surprised to hear that,Jun was 30 years old.Till now I thought he was younger or elder than me by 2 years maximum.

Yesterday Michael apologised for us as we missed his class.He said it was no problem.

C.A

Today was a good day,although i had my physical chemistry CA.The paper was very ease,but i think i did a mess of it.Any way it gave me a taste of the final exam.Safiya told me it was easy too,but she thinks she will fail.But in my heart i feel,she will have great marks,better than me.

She and i missed today's Scientific Lecture.So i broke my 100% attendance.We actually thought it was at 5,but actually it was at 4.The time table was changed..

Day Summary

Well,today was altogether a good day.I have not yet finished my Drug Delivery assignments and 2 morrow is the last day.I have to finish reports for Inorganic Chemistry and Scientific Analysis.And honestly I don't have a clue in Scientific Analysis.Today I and Safiya tried doing some parts of inorganic report,but we ourselves aren`t  sure what we were doing.She has taken one of my reports for taking the calculation for the Nickel complex.She said she feels as if she isn't  doing well in her studies in this semester.She said she feels good in scientific analysis and not the other labs,but I said I have the opposite.

In Michael's lab I think they were only about 5 people.He was not happy with the attendance.I was having 100% and Lukaa was having about 83%.But i really don't care about the attendance,all I want is good marks in the exam.As usual he left us 1/2 an hour early.

The weather outside was horrible.It was so windy,that i couldn't even walk properly.

The AC Adaptor for the laptop came 2day morning.

I was tired a bit,i had the intention for studying something,but i dint study anything.I think this was because,i dint finish the lab reports.Once all the lab reports are finished,im sure I will feel great.

A lose

I had a mail from Renju saying that he has lost one of his friends.I replied with a comforting message.Sad to hear that.