Providence and perfection

After sending more than 90 job applications, I am finally employed. I thank friends, acquaintances and family for their prayers. Even though the job is not anywhere close to the academic qualifications I have, I think at least I have a footing. The job pertains helping elderly with their fluid intake. I experience a sense of satisfaction and humility from this job.
Ronitta has finally cleared her OET exam. This too is a blessing from God. Now God willing we will be with my mom. It will take time and have setbacks but I am hoping to put everything at His feet.

Even in the midst of all these good news, there are times when I let God down. It all comes down to selfishness and instant gratification. But I hope He understands.
I used to waste a lot of time with my phone playing games and respecting my assurance to God that I would stop this once Ronitta gets OET, and so I now have stopped playing.
We can't really promise anything to God. Our words, actions and intentions sway from the most banal and corrupt to the most immaculate and pure. Our only choice is to constantly change to be good to God and all around. The way to perfection is long and hard, but each step takes us forward.

Mathew 5:48 
Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

Here it's pretty obvious that no one wants to be perfect. You can only define perfection once you have achieved it.  With God bein perfect and we being created with His perfect image, you may ask why then we cause trouble and rebellion. 

Maybe God wants to make us understand that yes we all are born perfect. But once we reach the stage where the world teaches us imperfection, we are made corrupt. So maybe God wants us to return to the initial stage He created us. Without prejudice, without sin and evil. I think this is what He cares. To accept that it is impossible to be perfect without His help and to be in accordance with His view of perfection. 

But unfortunately like me there are few who always struggle between perfection and imperfections. If I take two steps forward, I sadly willingly take three steps backwards. 

I need to change my choices and priorities.