Even the Sun sets!..(just a crazy title,thts all )

Its almost my a month since my last post..I had time, but i was lazy basically!!..
Well, let me continue where i left...
On 25th August  at around 11:50 pm, Nancy called me to say a goodbye.Bye Nancy, I wish you good luck, and ill pray for you.Thanks for listening to all my rubbish and useless talks..hehe

During the time between then and now, nothing special happened. Except for one thing. I had contacted a college for my admission in Dubai.They said its all  right to come and study there.And so I even ended up paying the fees even.So now, here am I, waiting for my UAE Visa.Once i get hold of it.My stay in Ireland is numbered.In fact classes have already started there, so i have to be quick!

But Im not getting too excited about this.Once I get the visa, ill get excited..hehe.Again God plays a role here..is it not God?

My college here have already started on 14th.But i never went.Why should I ? Nevertheless Im sure that Safiya feels sad.She have been saying me to come back.She says there's no one like a friend as me, to her.

Well today,I went to college to see her.She was very happy to see me.And it was only then I told her that I payed the fees for my "future-college".Hearing that, she went silent for a while.I could see that it was kind of painful for her.She said that till today she had a little hope that i will come back,but after hearing this..all hopes are lost. She asked me "Why are you doing this to me?"..haa!..Safiya, I know how much you like me, but things don't always goes as we wish to.She said "I wished I never met you!".She asked "Why are you leaving me alone here?".I reassured her that she is not alone, and she will get used to it.She said  "I cant forget you" and that no one can replace me.Hmm..Safiya, I know you are a good friend and Ill always miss you wherever I go..just like you.

So,thats 4 today i guess..ill try to see her again and again..till then, for now,byeee!!

Bye Nancy!

Today is the last day for Nancy here in Irish soil.I wish all my good luck and all my prayers to you "chechi" (elder sister in my language).I called her and send her SMS, but she dint respond.Its Ok, she must b busy.You were a good friend to me too.Thank you!

A bye-bye

It was a beautiful morning, with lots of sunshine! And yeah  I went to see Safiya today in college.I had to wait half an hour outside for her, during which i really enjoyed the sun.

Well, I told her that I may be leaving soon and that this may be our last meeting.But the funny thing is that , she said she had the feeling that its not the last time.I told her not say that and I wanted to leave.She told she will miss me so much, and asked me to stay to complete my studies here.She said, its better for me and better for my mother.I replied saying “let God decide everything”.We talked a bit more and then left.

Safiya, I too will miss you so much if I leave.

Pure Laziness!!

I was not posting since the past few weeks (a month or so) as there was nothing new or remarkable to be posted and that because i was being lazy to write something here.
Anyways, something is better than nothing, so i thought of posting something…mmm
Well..Nancy will b leaving soon from here.She was a good friend/big sis for me.I wish her good luck and she will be definitely in my prayers (as before)..
Then mmm..O yeah..Safiya is doing her repeats at the moment and she has her last exam tomorrow.I wanted to see her badly, maybe tomorrow I will be able to.It'll be a surprise for her  if she sees me.
And yeah..about my departure…its not yet decided.I have tried few colleges, but something or the other comes in between and I leave it..This is also one of the reason why i wanted to see Safiya, cos if I am leaving, it’ll be the last chance of seeing her!! Gosh! I don't have anything to give it to her..only empty hands!!
In the meantime I happened to be in possession of a book kindly given by my aunt.Its “More About Fatima by Rev.V.Montes de Oca, C.S.Sp.”.Its a 2005 reprint of the first one in 1945.Ill suggest this book to both believers and non believers as it contains less religious jargon and to me it seems more of as a history book.But yeah..there are “messages” which either you can believe in..or you can just see it as a fantasy.Its your life and its you wish!
Before even i finish this book, i took another one from my local library.Its titled “Mother of God a history of The Virgin Mary by Miri Rubin.Its a 424 pages book and I wonder if Ill be able to finish it (I don't finish the books i take  or start reading…maybe its because I don't get the time or maybe its all an infatuation,although the latter seems more true).
That’s it  4 now!!..Peace

Howdy Harry?

Yesterday I went to see the new Harry Potter movie at the cinema.Although I lost my interest in the Harry Potter series long back, I went because i had never gone to the cinemas in Ireland since i came here.The movie was OK.Ill give it a rating of 7/10.

Then,something interesting did happen today..which ill probably say it later.

Is being younger better?..(I mean... for having healthier kids)

I just read an article about the effects of aging men getting married late...it definitely sounds interesting to me...
You can follow it here .Its worth a read!!

Sorry!

I did not write anything since about 2 months!.Ok..so last month i went to India for my holidays.It was great.I liked it.I came back on 29th.
The exams were Ok..although it was very hard for me.I secured 2.8 GPA out of 4.And my overall GPA was 3.17.Thank you Lord for all your help.And so since i lost my interest in Chemistry, i decided to go for a BDS course in Bangalore.I had plans to go to Australia for nursing.It would have only taken 2 years compared to 4 years for BDS.But since my family said nursing is not good..im going for BDS.The course starts next month(i think)
Ok since my arrival, I haven't talked about this to Safiya.It was only today i told her this.This was the conversation we had.It will be left incomplete for personal reasons.


“Safiya: Hi Sanju how are you you sure you will not come next year and you will be in india..
Me: ….Im not sure Safiya,I have to wait ….
Safiya:….ok Sanju if you decided to leave me i cant say any thing just good luck i am happy for you but sad about my self ill miss you so so so much
Me: I wanted to see u 4 the last time.Safiya,im sure i will not  get a great friend as u.
Safiya:When you will go to india again
Me: ill go most probably on 3rd next month.Safiya, if u r feeling sad..just think about my mother.I dont know wht to say Safiya.
Safiya: You mean 3rd of 8
Me: Yes Safiya,next month...its very near..
Safiya: Why you doing that to me Sanju you surprising me you will leave me alone in this college
Safiya: You know me i am strong but this time i am cring Sanju
Me: Safiya read my message which i sent u on 29th.I said i will b sad and i said i will say to l8r.
Safiya please dont cry..u are  elder than me.
Me: Safiya if u will cry then,i too will feel to cry.You are strong Safiya, u can face it.Im sure.
Safiya:Ill face it but ill suffer and need time to cope. you will leave me suffering.
Me: Safiya.I dont know wht to say Safiya, its Ok. You know, such things will happen.It is very painful but.Please pray,wht else can i say to u..
Me: Safiya,try to cope.Safiya, I dont have a friend like you and i only have 1 friend here and thts u.You were good to me Safiya.You took good care of me.
Safiya: You sure you will go and not come back again
Me: I dont think i will come back...if mother comes there for her holidays nxt year,then i wont b able to come here
Safiya: Ok .i cant say anything. Good luck Sanju
Me: Safiya, dont worry! You will always be in my heart.I will always think about the times we had together.I loved you sooo much Safiya.I will always love u,even far.
Me: Safiya,its actually my fault Safiya.If had more friends here,or if i had a job here,I would not have left you.Im sorry Safiya to do like this.
Me: Safiya talk to me when u r free till next month..ok?txt me or call me.This is the reason y i said b4, i need to hear your voice.
Safiya: Ill text you later i cant do any thing now
Me: Safiya, i have not felt this way ever before in my Life.You were so close to me.Im crying now…….”

So you see, it feels awful (for both of us)….